Sunday, April 3, 2011

Hospital Dramas

I have always loved watching Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice on Thursday nights. Having lived my own hospital drama, however, watching TV has lost something for me. Tonight as I watched one of the shows from my DVR, I wondered how I would have reacted as a viewer of Ramey's battle with CDH. I've decided it's different when you're on the outside looking in. On so many levels, it is harder experiencing the drama. Yet, I was stronger as I lived it. If I could replay those difficult moments, I'd cry harder watching them than I did as they were occurring. It may sound strange, but I wish I could see it all again. I've said it before, but I can't understand how I was as tough as I was throughout Ramsey's fight. (Particularly during the days that I remained at West Penn Hospital while he was being treated at Children's. I don't recall feeling the despair that I expected to feel). Dennis suggested that they gave me something for my nerves, which is possible. I know God helped me through it, and the prayers of so many people. I am so thankful that I have this blog as a way to look back on every incident that led to Ramsey's homecoming. Otherwise, I'm afraid much of my experiences would remain a bit of a blur. One thing that is clear is how well Ramsey is doing. His nurse visited for the last time on Friday. It feels odd knowing he won't have any appointments this week. We are so thankful for his progress!

6 comments:

  1. I don't know how you stayed so strong either. To be honest, I don't know if I would have been able to be as strong as you were. Impressive :)

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  2. I think God gives you the strength to handle the difficulties that occur in your life. When you encounter the difficulties, I think you "aim" to look for the positive side. Sounds strange but I hope you understand what I am saying.

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  3. Lisa, We all knew how stressful this was for you, but with everyone praying for you and for Ramsey, we also knew God was with both of you. He was with you always and he still is. PRAISE GOD!!!!You and Ramsey are GOD's children and he will protect you.

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  4. You sure taught me a lot of things, you showed me strength in your most difficult times,positive attitude, knowing first hand God's love, and the power of a mothers love when Ramsey crashed, the gentle wispers to him and gentle touch. A mothers love that caused a miracle with true Faith.
    Love,
    Mom R

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  5. Cousin Denise (Washington)April 6, 2011 at 10:07 PM

    When our son Sean was 6, he suffered an injury which led to more than 30 surgical procedures. We spent 7 weeks in Children's, and had trips to the hospital every other day for months after that. I learned IV care and administering of medications, pin care, wound care...more medical skill than I ever wanted to have.
    When I look back at that time, I have no idea how I managed to get through it. I don't know if I could ever do it again, and I hope I don't have to.

    The lesson I learned is one of faith and the power of prayer. Both in healing, and supporting you as the parent. And when it's your child, God gives you the strength to do anything.

    We are all so happy Ramsey is doing so well. We'll continue to pray for him.

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  6. Lisa-
    Did you see the private practice that involved a CDH baby? The baby was supposed to be adopted, but the adoptive parents were afraid of dealing with the sick baby and wouldn't make the "decision" (like it's a decision) to have the repair surgery. The birth mom had to make the "decision" and then a day after the surgery the baby is shown with no tubes, no ventilator, looking as healthy as can be. So unrealistic of course, but at least they mentioned CDH.
    I agree, you don't realize how strong you can be until you have to be, and it will make you stronger and more appreciative of every single thing in life. Stay well Ramsey!
    Hugs,
    Jennifer

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