Sunday, April 3, 2011
I have always loved watching Grey's Anatomy and Private Practice on Thursday nights. Having lived my own hospital drama, however, watching TV has lost something for me. Tonight as I watched one of the shows from my DVR, I wondered how I would have reacted as a viewer of Ramey's battle with CDH. I've decided it's different when you're on the outside looking in. On so many levels, it is harder experiencing the drama. Yet, I was stronger as I lived it. If I could replay those difficult moments, I'd cry harder watching them than I did as they were occurring. It may sound strange, but I wish I could see it all again. I've said it before, but I can't understand how I was as tough as I was throughout Ramsey's fight. (Particularly during the days that I remained at West Penn Hospital while he was being treated at Children's. I don't recall feeling the despair that I expected to feel). Dennis suggested that they gave me something for my nerves, which is possible. I know God helped me through it, and the prayers of so many people. I am so thankful that I have this blog as a way to look back on every incident that led to Ramsey's homecoming. Otherwise, I'm afraid much of my experiences would remain a bit of a blur. One thing that is clear is how well Ramsey is doing. His nurse visited for the last time on Friday. It feels odd knowing he won't have any appointments this week. We are so thankful for his progress!
Posted by Lisa Razza at 10:28 PM